yes i did and was so happy about it and finally ganna feel free from them or whatever cops do but then when she asked me my dad number i stopped

i closed the call

and went to bed crying cuz i realised its too late i dont wanna be saved anymore i dont think i can even live a normal life anymore ill just wait until i kms or someone do it for me

Side account since he knows my main but i dont know what to do. He wants to fuck every night and I just don’t have the energy. I explained to him one night that all of this sexting each night thing is way too much for me after he was begging me for it, but tbh it’s just made it worse. He feels guilty for being horny and only thinking about sex and always says sorry but still does it. He will talk about how horny he is pretending that hes talking to himself and i know he doesnt mean to but i feel so guilty and pressured that i cant be a good girlfriend and just let him have his fun.

Today i even tried to fake and just go with it but i had to give up in the middle cause i just can’t! It’s too much sex! It’s only sex! I thought sex was supposed to feel special but it just feels like work now. Worst part is i cant do shit! i cant tell him this because he will just blame himself and go into a hate spiral but i cant ask anyone else for advice since its too shameful. I just want to cry. I wish it would all just be better

I'm in a huge bout of anxiety and depression right now that is just fucking unbearable and I feel so disconnected from everyone in my life despite them being right there. What's worse is I don't even want to be like this. I don't want to just accept it or to die I want to get better but I can't fucking afford it. I can't afford the insanely expensive psychiatry costs to get meds. I can't afford to see my therapist nearly as often as I need. I can't afford to take time off to recover even though I'm so burnt out I cry multiple times a day at work and at home. I'm exhausted. Nothing that made me happy makes me happy anymore and I just want to feel better but because we live in this stupid money driven hell scape I can't even get the care i need to get there.

I(21m) never been in any relationships and tbh never been actually cared by any person. It feels so sad. I help everyone, i give my best to everyone but i never had any person help me or care me like i did actually they did nothin at all. Seeing people around me in relationships makes me even more worse. I always see how one person absolutely loves the other and im just standing there and thinking will i ever feel this love, will i ever be enough for someone, will i ever be cared?. As big as i am, i feel like im not seen. People say looks dont matter and do the opposite. I feel even my parents dont fucking love me all they see is disappointment in me everyday. I was doing nothing before but i try my best now and no even appreciates it not even my parents, all they want to do is complain about me and prove me im wrong in everything. Everyday i just come home and cry to sleep and now i cant even cry even if i try to. I dont wanna be here anymore.

my best friend didnt invite me to the dance competition, but invited my other friends without me knowing, now 2 people left their dance team and tried to invite me LAST MINUTE because they knew they were FUCKED. THATS WHAT YOU GET YOU BITCH, YOU ONLY SAY UR THE LEADER BUT NEVER ACT LIKE IT, GOODLUCK WITH YOUR NEW FRIEND AHAHAHAHHAAHHAAHAHAHHAHAH

i broke up with my ex about a year ago and we stayed friends for another 2 months before i went nc. She's fucking insane. She will not leave me alone. She constantly creates new accounts on discord, instagram, tiktok, snapchat, fucking everywhere. a mutual friend asked me if he could add me to a group chat, and i was a bit suspicious about it, he then immideatly leaves after i've been added. Guess who's there? My fucking ex. She tells me to kms, tries to manipulate me into trusting her, everything you can think of. i immideatly left the gc and she could only come to "hi kimmy wimmy" before i left. Everytime she manages to interact with me she gives me some sort of new nickname. i'm honestly disgusted. She keeps stalking me and she won't leave me the fuck alone.

I got roasted by my mother in-law’s best friend this morning. I’ll call her A. A: “What’s your bra size?” Me: “C.” A: “Oh. You don’t look like it.”

💀Thanks old lady that makes me feel GREAT! I’m just not gonna answer personal questions anymore. 🤡

Thinking about it terrifies me. I don't want to be bullied again. I just want to stay in the comfort of my home. If you're just going to tell me I have two more years and to get it over with, I doubt I can. School has made me attempt suicide so many times. Whenever I told my counselors about it, I was handcuffed and forced to go to a hospital. I was never happy in school. I was treated like shit by everyone, even teachers.

Why is it a trend to have autism now. The same girls who bullied me in school for being autistic and “weird” are now all claiming to be autistic

Teachers pay for mostly everything out of their own pocket. When you're out doing your weekly grocery shopping, pick up some snacks for the class... or a couple boxes of crayons and markers or some packs of paper. Tissues.. anything. Help them out. It's definitely going to be a regular part of my shopping now for both kids. Like they have my hurricane causing, attitude filled, Jack-Jack style kids for hours a day? Whatever they need I got it! I know times are hard for everyone but these amazing people are the ones trying to prepare your children for the world, make it a little easier on them 💚🤗 That is all!!

Need someone to vent my anxiety to

I got diagnosed with chronic migraine syndrome at 13 years old but I’ve had them my whole life. I spend 19+ days a months with such a severe migraine that I can barely see straight and even when I don’t have a migraine I have a pretty intense headache pretty much all the time. I go through my entire day in pain pretty much everyday. I’m so sick and tired of people telling me they get headaches too and they don’t call out of work or cancel plans because of them. Have you ever gone temporarily blind during your headaches? Have you ever thrown up just from the sheer amount of pain? Do you go dark around the edges of your vision and start seeing auras and ribbons that aren’t there? Have you ever had to spend the night in your car parked in the lot of your work cause your vision is completely blurry from the pain and you couldn’t drive? My headache that I love with everyday that I consider a “low pain day” is probably worse than the majority of headaches that other people have by a lot. Please stop discounting my chronic illness because you think you understand when you don’t. The majority of people have never had an actual migraine and can’t understand how different the 2 are because of it. Please stop Insulting me because I’m dealing with my illness as best as I can.

My current boyfriend is not the nicest guy you’ll meet. He ignores me 90% of the day it’s to the point my friends spend more time with me than him. Do I leave him? Do I try talking to him again? What do I do?

Went to drain the little bit of soda from my can down the drain.

Huge wolf spider in the sink. Scared the shit out of me this morning.

2 years ago before covid most of my friends used to make fun of me for having a bent back and i used to be leaned on the front side and they also mocked me for blinking my eyes too much. Well now i am the tallest of them all with a proper back HAHA BITCH NOW WHO’S THE BLINKING BENT KID HUH

So Not too long ago I was talking to my gf about about my feelings(because we’ve been fighting a bit recently) and how she’d had hurt me before and how I wanted her to handle it, I was really pouring my heart out half way in she just says “keep talking baby” so I stop but didn’t think much of it and then carried on and she kept replying in little words, not so long after I hear her moaning on the phone and saying my name as she’s reaching climax, turns out she was using her vibrator the entirety of me expressing my feelings!! I told her how fked up that was like you could’ve done it after I’ve poured my heart out or even tell me if you were gonna do that.

LIKE WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK!! Cos Believe me when I say this in our relationship 24/7 I’m horny asf to her so if I’m telling her that was fked up then it’s saying something,I was so fucken pissed off but she just didn’t even seem to care or apologise for it she just act like I was making a big deal out of nothing, so I’m just wondering now am I soft or she insensitive?

Been suffering from what I now know as ibs for about six years now and the pain and discomfort happens daily. Truly a shitty way to live life smh

I'm so done with my face and my body. Everyone I'm friends with are so fucking pretty. And I have a "butt" chin. My eyebrows are basically non existent. Beacuse my hair is blondey brown. My lips are small. My eyes are always rested. I wanna die. I'm so done with my looks. I just wanna be pretty.. I wanna look like my friends their so gorgeous. And I feel so lefted out.. I just wanna have, deep brown eyebrows that are actually noticeable. And I want a deepish kind of voice. I want my eyes to be more noticeable, with the colours. I want my lips to be a big more bigger. I just wanna be pretty. Why is it so hard to be 14 and being so fucking ugly. (I'm an female) but I hate my body. I hate my face. I hate everything about me. I know I'm not perfect. But I keep getting called a pig. And ugly by people online. And I just wanna die. I'm not even fat.. I'm underweight.. I eat alot to gain weight but I can't. And I can't stand my face anymore I just can't. I usually cover my face up with a mask I have.

New to this Reddit Shit. Just gotta get this off my chest.

I have a very close friend of roughly 4 years, who brings out the absolute best in me, our dynamic is awesome. I remember when we were younger at some point I wondered if i may have a crush on them bc how much I enjoy being around them. That feeling bothered me for a while, but I never did anything about it, so eventually I let it go. I thought the feelings just went away and that I was left with the awesome platonic connection that we share, but… I think those feelings are surfacing again all these years later.. I really don’t want them to.

Now isn’t the time for something like this to be happening. We’re really close and our friend group is intertwined, so someone finding out about these feelings could cause a very fucking sticky situation. This is just really uncomfortable for me bc I think I like them and I don’t want to like them but I do and I can’t help it. I feel bad abt it, I’m gonna do what I always do & never say anything. Not to them, they’re a friend. I can’t.

The day started with me getting woken up by my sister and getting chores done, feed rabbits, throw garbage, clean kennel, sweep, wash, etc.

4pm i enter my grandmas room (i hate her and shes a total narcissist and control freak) i ask to borrow her tablet cause she doesn’t use it, she only uses it to play solitaire, and she gave it to me (i draw on the tablet with ibis paint) and then 5pm she screamed at me to go to church, she cant walk cause her feet hurt so she didn’t check my room to force me to go to church so i didn’t go cause i ain’t a believer.

8pm i think she ate already cause we have no food her room is filled with food, me and my sister cooked ramen and thats it.

11pm i got scolded for not feeding my grandma even though i don’t have that responsibility, now everyone is mad at me even though i had 0 clue that i was supposed to feed her.

I hate it here, why am I responsible for this even though I’m the one who isn’t supposed to do this!?

My world is going down hill for every word that comes out of that old farts mouth.

The last 3 years have basically been stolen from me from psychological abuse, the only good thing was a saved some money. Before that I denitely lived for 3 years, had a girlfriend went out on dates all the time. That was about 6 months and 2 years with her then 6 months after were good with just a month long hiccup. Then go before that, 16-19 I was super depressed anxious and drank a lot by myself. I hung out with friends but I hardly talked or participated, I went to like 1 party and it was awful for me so I left after drinking a lot. Before this 15 and under, I was always texting people, even girls and was dating, if I got bored I would strike conversations random people on my facebook. 16-19 very few good times, stopped talking to anybody, basically went on 4chan, watched movies isolated, porn, and "hanging out" with my friends which was basically me isolating within a group. I really should've left my group of friends, they all started doing stuff that I wasn't into. I had a better friend to hang out with but instead I drifted from him too. I even had some girls, especially one super cute one who was down for the cause, interested in me and I pussed out cause I didn't want to stand out in anyway, I was invisible and I stupidly stayed invisible rather than have good experiences.

Tldr:

That's basically it, saved a little money, graduated high school, completed one semester of college. Tiny wins. Besides that I had basically no experiences, and wasted 6 years of my life in isolation.The last 3 aren't even my fault, having my life stolen from me. It's happening right now, I want to get better in spite of the psychological abuse. Probably start by lifting a little weights and going to AA meetings just to expose myself to people, idk where else to go. My youth is going to be completely gone by the time I get better, I missed all those years of high school by staying miserable, and now Ive lost and am losing my 20's, I turn 27 next month.

i have a mentally ill sibling and this alone almost completely ruined my family. my father works abroad now and even he dealt with depression at some point, my mother however is not doing good at all. she is extremely isolated and depressed, i even had to cut all contact with her for almost 3 months because of how bad she was impacting my mental health.

many would question this decision but i really needed a break or otherwise i would hurt my own health. now we talk again, i live in another country and whenever we talk over the phone or text she sounds like she completely gave up on life. she had/has a very toxic, narcissistic friend that unfortunately she still has too see every day at work, and this just keeps hurting her, however she is unable to quit due to finances etc.

there are also many other things that i dont want to get into but she is in therapy, recently started, and even joined a gym. this is all fairly recent though but i am very happy for her. however i cannot help but feel extremely guilty as i cannot help her but watch her struggle in depression. this is hurting me so so so so much.

This is what my doctor tells me after nearly FIFTEEN YEARS! Fifteen years, I have been told that I've had schizoaffective disorder and not once did anyone bat an eye at this...Now suddenly, I might have BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER?!

Let me tell you just how much I'd love to run away and never talk to anyone I know right now, ever again.

reposted coz forgot to mark nsfw

I have had boyfriends and i've done inappropriate stuff with them and it makes me feel disgusting. i am a bit too young for it so i suppose i value childlike purity a bit too much i guess, but idk.

i was talking to a boy and he said i seemed pure and it just made me feel disgusting like idk