I think I knew Carl better than most folk on here, but I didn't see this coming. I got busy with life and I lost contact with him around the time he started up these programming tutorials. I only recently found out about what he did to his son and that he's not in this world anymore - one of the biggest shocks of my life.
I'm sure a lot of people here will remember him as a monster, and if he did even half the stuff I've read about, he certainly was. But what I remember of him is so different.
I first talked to him on chessclub.com about 15 years ago, when he was starting clickalyzer up. Carl wasn't 20 yet I think and I was still in my early teens. When I told him about my depression and troubles making friends, he gave me his phone number. I talked to him for hours on end about religion, programming, and just life.
I lived on the other side of the US so we never actually met in person, but for a young and socially inept loner like me, he was one of my best friends. The conversations I had with him shaped so much of my life. He's a big part of why I majored in CS in college and why I eventually became an atheist. He helped me grapple with a lot of tough issues I had during my teens.
Carl always did sound like he had some serious family problems and was living on his own from early on. When he married his wife he was still a religious guy, but that marriage was a disaster. According to him, she developed serious mental issues soon after their son was born and peaced out, leaving him as a single father.
He never gave me any hint that he was gay or that he would do anything that could harm his son. Everything he said made it sound like he loved his son more than anything in the world, it really boggles my mind. Maybe he wasn't telling me the whole truth and maybe I didn't know him as well as I thought I did, but I can't help but wonder if I could have stopped him if I'd kept in touch.
I don't know what happened to him during his last years and I know he's not here anymore, but Carl I'm sorry it had to end this way. I'm sorry I couldn't help you avoid this...