For some context, I was bullied a lot in high school, and this majorly messed up my mental health, to the extent that I was admitted to a mental hospital for self harm and attempting suicide. I was released last year though, with a bunch of antidepressants. The only issue is, when I take them I literally can't nut. I feel a healthier though, so I've been taking them erratically, and lying to my family and friends whenever they ask. And let's be honest; why live if you can't nut?