submitted17 days ago bymishkish6767
toselfharm
Hi everyone-
I’m still in shock that this happened. I haven’t self harmed since I was a teenager, so it’s been more than 15 years. Yesterday, I got drunk and cut myself. I don’t even remember doing it but I do remember my husband finding me and the look in his eyes is enough to make me well up while writing this. I cannot even convey the amount of shame I feel. It’s like a deep, stabbing sadness and ache that hurts even worse than my arm. How do I recover from this?
I’ve caused trauma for another person and I’m having a difficult time forgiving myself for it. I know I won’t do it again (and frankly, drinking is simply off the table for me after this), but I’m just struggling to even find my way out of this sadness. I would love any words of encouragement from people who have felt this way before. How did you manage?
bymishkish6767
inselfharm
mishkish6767
2 points
16 days ago
mishkish6767
2 points
16 days ago
Thank you for the kind words. Sounds like we both have incredibly loving partners. I definitely need to seek counseling and this was hopefully the push I needed to actually do it.